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Pressed for Time

2012-01-25T13:39:00.001-08:00

Lol thought I would do a quick update. I start classes on Saterday. Should be done on Feb 29th (I think) then to take the test and get a job. Yay. So excited to start this new part in my life. Well off to work then I think a run tonight would be good.

A Hard Decision

2012-01-01T18:52:00.000-08:00

For the past couple months I have been looking into school and trying to decide what I want to do the rest of my life. I love being a nanny but its not a stable job, and the worst part is when they no longer need you and you have to tell the little kids that you have spent umpteen million hours with good bye and usually for good.

I have always wanted to go into the medical field so that was option one. Option two was being a K-8 teacher because I love working with kids. Option three was accounting because I love spreadsheets and I love running numbers.

I have decided to go the medical route. I am looking into CNA training to start off with and will work with that while trying to get my LPN and RN degrees.

I know that the road ahead is not easy and at times I will feel like giving up but I feel that it is the right decision for me and were I am right now. So here is to a New Year and a new start.

Things I want to do

2011-12-26T21:56:00.000-08:00

Now that I am single (The divorce went threw on November 11th). There are many things that I find I wasn't allowed to do that I want to do. There are also things that I want to do just because. I find it funny that I am a happier, more energetic person. I want to feel alive and free, to feel the wind in my hair and my heart race, to dance in the rain and scream at the top of my lungs.

Maybe Im nuts but that's OK. So here is the start of the list of things I want to do...
Skydive
Dance in the rain
Scream at the top of my lungs
Ride on a motorcycle
Hike a mountain
Go to another country
Jog
Go Dancing

I will add more as they come up. I want to live my life to the fullest.

One of those days

2011-12-20T18:36:00.000-08:00

Today I woke up thinking that things would go one way and I will just say they didn't. I spent the morning playing mommy to my mom and brothers kids. Sometimes it feels like I am a single parent of 7, 2 year old's and one baby.

I finally got to take a shower at 10 and ran out the door to work. When I got home I had a sister proclame that I had not been home all day and therefor done nothing around the house. I felt like getting in my car and driving till I ran out of gas and I would have if I didn't have to work tomorrow. Im sure I could have gotten 100miles or so away.

No one in this house understands what it feels like to have OCD and them live like pigs. I like my room in the garage for that reason. I only rarely have to deal with them and their messes.

Well off to finish cleaning the house for one more child to visit (he flies in tonight) then off to bed (Hope not to late) and then work at 5:30 in the morning. Come on Friday hurry up and come.

I have missed this

2011-12-18T00:56:00.000-08:00

I use to blog all the time. I stopped when my life was turned upside down after I got a divorce. I am now happier then I have been in a long time. I moved back home to Washington and have thought a lot about my future but have come to realize that it will always be there tomorrow.

I have decided that I want to live each day so that when I go to bed at night I am happy with what I have accomplished weather its staying in my PJ all day or sky diving. I want to feel the wind in my face, dance in the rain, scream at the top of my lungs and not care who can hear. I want to live my life with purpose.

I am not going to let anyone stand in my way anymore. I am who I am and if you don't like it then I don't need you in my life. Don't tell me that I'm doing it wrong because the only person that can be me is well me.